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i was on the phone with my sister tonight  -- the blogless one that harasses me about not posting enough and might be my main motivator to post anything at all -- and she told me i need to post more and i need to keep her updated on my pregnancy. 

asking my other sister about it, she used a lot less words and basically just said "sure."

but here's the thing, i'm not sure if anyone other than my two sisters would like to hear boring stories about my fascination with being pregnant.  yes, i think it's the most amazing thing ever, but i also realize i'm not the first person to ever be pregnant. 

so readers, i realize there are only about four of you and so your opinions should count!  i will give you a short, undefined period of time to comment (anonymously if you wish) and let me know your preference.  i will not be offended either way!

in case you didn't know

i have a baby in me.

hopefully it will arrive sometime in the neighborhood of july 10.

who knew?

right now i think i'm the most grumpy, angry, irritable person on the face of the earth.

technology is standing in the way of me and the second half of pride and prejudice and i'm about to cry.

i know i love my life, but right now i just hate it.  how could the heavens do this to me?!?!

i might not survive.  i need serious words of encouragement and a lot of distraction.

it is times like these that i wish my add was just a little more severe.  but really, is any level of add going to keep me from the second half of pride and prejudice?

i think not.

why thank you

chris informed me last night that my bellybutton looks different.

hm, i guess i hadn't noticed that, but yes, now that you mention it i admit that it has stretched a little more horizontally... not unlike the rest of my rounding middle.

okay honey.  thank you?

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side story:  christopher was brushing his teeth across the room when he saw me typing and asked what i was smiling about.  i became super secretive and tried to cover his eyes (as i've mentioned, he doesn't read the blog) feeling instinctively like i should keep it from him.  ha, let me tell you, you totally wish you could have seen what ensued.  it involved a husband with a mouth full of toothpaste, a weak wife, and a tickle fight that may or may not have caused the husband to lose some of the aforementioned toothpaste.  i was thinking today about how i wish i could have at least one good laugh a day and that that doesn't really happen so much these days.

well today, i definitely got my laugh.

denial

we went to georgia for christmas break.  it was absolute heaven.  coming back to work was a major adjustment but the days are getting easier as time goes by.  today i thought i was all better until i looked at my suitcase.  still in the exact spot that i left it when i dropped it in front of my closet the night of 1.3.10 and although it's been open and rummaged through, it has not been properly unpacked and put away.  over the last ten days i have cleaned the entire apartment but the suitcase is still there.

i wish i could say this was the first time it's taken me this long to unpack after a good trip. 

instead, i think i'm beginning to judge the wonderfulness of my vacations based on how long it takes me to unpack my suitcase.

hmm this turned out to be a bit of a downer.  don't take it that way.  i've had the most amazing past 24 hours filled with tons of fun and adventure and i couldn't love life more. 

just happened to be thinking about my suitcase at the moment.

a little scattered

today i was severely bothered because i did not know the correct grammar for a sentence i wanted to write.  use to or used to?  tried to look it up but didn't know a good site.  i hate when google can't solve all of my problems.

my skin is so itchy i think i might die.  i want to swim in a pool of vaseline and never come out.  i also wish i could apply lotion without christopher keeping a five foot distance for the following twenty four hours.

today i may or may not have shed tears while eating goldfish.  why?  i actually enjoyed eating them and was just so overwhelmed with gratitude and happiness about it.  ha.  i was glad not to have had an audience.

i did a million and one dishes tonight.  i think it was the first time i've done dishes in about six weeks.

my mom called me tonight at 10:45pm her time.  why?  it was the only time we were both available.  oh how loved i feel!  mother, if you read this i would tell you thanks for making me a priority and for calling instead of waiting for me to call you.  it's made me feel so special tonight.

i wish i wasn't hungry right now.  sometimes filling the bottomless pit is just exhausting... and unpleasant.

so happy tomorrow is friday.  this has been the longest week ever at work.  today, not so bad.  monday tuesday wednesday?  might as well have been an eternity.

tonight christopher came home from school and gave me a quick hug and a kiss.  then he told me he needed some time because he had some things he had to do.  he promptly got out his laptop and i decided to wait patiently until he was done.  when i recognized the texas game he was watching i gave up and left the room.  i tried to act annoyed but really i was just amused.  still am.  i should probably be offended about this.

i hear bedtime coming!

back from christmas break

oh my goodness christmas break was the best thing ever ever ever.  i am extremely worried about the withdrawl that is going to ensue. 

ha,

pray for me!