8 weeks

How far along:  8 weeks  (10.23.14)

Total weight gain/loss: -2 lbs

Maternity clothes:  yes... but only because i wear maternity clothes as part of my regular wardrobe. 

Sleep:  not awesome.  i've had two more dreams about miscarriage and a million more dreams that are so strange and detailed, it would take me years to fully write out.  i don't ever really feel like i'm asleep... it's more like i'm laying in bed, watching a movie on my bedroom ceiling.  the plus side is that i don't feel sick or have a headache while i'm asleep so even though it's not a complete escape, it offers some relief.  for that reason, i've taken up sleeping ridiculous amounts of hours.  friday night i went to bed by 9 and slept for 12 hours.  when i woke up on saturday, i had honey make us all french toast.  i ate some and then went back to bed to lay down and let it settle.  and then somehow i fell asleep and didn't wake up until 1:30.  because who doesn't need a 2.5 hour nap after they just slept for 12 hours?  i've started sometimes taking a half or whole unisom at night.  and that knocks me out wonderfully.    

Best moment this week:  mehhh.... this is will sound terrible and ungrateful but i'm not really thinking of anything in particular right now.

Movement:  nope.

Food cravings:  i hate eating.  monday, i literally had a cup and a half of milk, four slices of french bread (toasted and buttered), and some pumpkin seeds... that was it from sunday night when i went to bed, until tuesday morning when i woke up.  tuesday, i ate at least 8 slices of toasted french bread, and at least 30 ounces of milk... and even some sausage stuffed french loaf.  i was eating a lot more frequently and feeling considerably more in control.  it was very empowering. but then i threw up.  and so it begins...

Symptoms: headache, nausea, vomiting, food aversion to everything, fatigue, 

Gender:  since this pregnancy is mirroring abigail's... i'm still thinking girl.

What I miss:  having good days. i haven't been blogging lately... because i normally just blog my happy moments that i'm afraid of forgetting.  who wants to hear me talk about how i lay in bed all day and haven't done laundry in two weeks? not me.  but i do miss good days.  tuesday was a day that would have been great except for the fact that i felt crappy.  it's like i'm living my life through nausea colored glasses.  

Milestones:  i threw up.  can that be my milestone this week? it gets worse before it gets better.
Theme: the week of feeling sick 
What's different this time around:  ehhh, some days i feel like i'm feeling better than i did during abigail's pregnancy, but it's hard to know for sure because i never kept any notes on it.  but i'm pretty sure this is right on line with abigail's pregnancy... and not as easy as brady's... with him, i never threw up! 

Extra:  i pretty much just lay in bed as much as i possibly can and hope that time passes quickly until bedtime and that the days pass quickly until the next week and that hopefully everything passes quickly and that i won't be sick by mid december.