11 weeks

How far along:  11 weeks  (11.13.14)

Total weight gain/loss: -1 lb

Maternity clothes:  yes... but only because i wear maternity clothes as part of my regular wardrobe. my stomach has definitely gotten bigger, but i still have plenty of room in all of my pants because they were all really big on me to begin with.  

Sleep:  it can be pretty hit and miss.  i'm still getting at least 12 hours a night.  i wake up multiple times in the night but have no problem falling asleep immediately.  mostly what wakes me up is that i'm uncomfortable and trying to switch sides or get off my painful belly or something.  i'm also woken up each morning by christopher when he wakes up, again when his alarm goes off, again when he gets up to shave/shower, and again when he gets dressed and finally leaves for work.  luckily, this is all happening between 5:30 and 6, so it's still dark and i'm able to go back to sleep for another hour or two.  my dreams are still really weird although i've been too lazy to remember them or write them down.  

Best moment this week:  maybe sunday, monday, and tuesday?  because i was feeling pretty good those days!  not very nauseas, no blinding headaches, not throwing up, able to eat at least one good meal a day...  it was glorious.  i was able to clean my house and do laundry and it really just was amazing.  i also was able to start looking forward to a few things!  i've been borderline (or at times last week, just straight up) depressed so it's been hard for me to get out of bed or do things because of that... even if i'm not feeling particularly nauseas or anything.  monday night was wonderful because carolyn and bryan and their kids came over to hang out for a while and it was so fun to see them while they were in town!  tuesday was amazing because it snowed all day and so we listened to christmas music and did laundry and cleaning and just enjoyed the time inside being cozy and warm.  

Movement:  sometimes i feel like i can feel movement, but i know it's not the real deal because i'm feeling it too high in my stomach and i know my babe is down low because it's still so early in the game.

Food cravings:  i don't always hate eating.  about once a day (normally between noon and 2), i can eat something of substance and each bite isn't torture.  i've been able to eat scrambled cheese eggs on biscuits (i don't ever want to look at french bread again) but i can't handle it every day... just every few days.  also, egg nog is always incredible.  along the egg nog route, i picked up a gallon of chocolate milk last time i was at the store (because it's less fattening and far cheaper than egg nog) and it was a huge lifesaver on friday and saturday, which were both really difficult days... especially with honey being out of town from wednesday to sunday.  when i was starving but couldn't handle eating, i could drink a glass or two of chocolate milk and be okay for an hour or two.  also, sweet and crunchy apples!  i typically don't buy apples because i am so picky about them being perfectly crunchy and juicy that they normally don't live up to my standards and it just seems like an inevitable disappointment.  but apples are in season (and last week a million and one brands were on sale for $.88/lb so i got four fuji (our normal buy) and four envy apples (i thought i was buying ambrosia apples but the basket must have been mislabeled because when i got home, i noticed they all had the envy stickers).  they're normally several dollars a pound but since i price matched the sprouts ad, i went ahead and tried them.  let me tell you, they are PHENOMENAL.  there is a reason they are priced above the rest.  holy cow at how sweet and juicy and crunchy and satisfying they are.  and they don't turn brown when you slice them!  the kids have also started going crazy for them.  

Symptoms: nausea, vomiting (just once last friday around noon), acne (holy crap i look so ugly), headaches, depression, lightheadedness, 

Gender:  my feeling is completely girl.  although the morning sickness seems to hopefully be subsiding and as of today, is more similar to brady's pregnancy than abigail's.  i'll find out in like two months though! 

What I miss:  being consistently happy.  friday was horrendous, saturday was still really bad, sunday was closer to normal, monday was alright, tuesday was close to normal, and wednesday was a whole mix of crazy of waking up with a blinding headache/almost passing out while making breakfast/yelling constantly at the kids and wanting nothing to do with them/feeling giddy with excitement when talking on the phone with my mom and grandmother about my upcoming trip to georgia.  i used to sit down to start a blog post and every time would have an urge to begin, "today was amazing" but lately, it's all just hit and miss.  my life really is a box of chocolates and i never really seem to know what i'm going to get each day.  luckily though, things seem to be improving overall.

Milestones:  i hope i'm not tempting fate, but i think my morning sickness is starting to fade!!!!
Theme: the week of my pregnancy depression was banished with some snow flurries
What's different this time around:  with abigail, i despised eating and would often sit in front of a plate of food and just cry because i could not bear to eat it, despite my body being so weak and starving and it didn't let up one single second until i hit 14.5 weeks.  this time, i've been able to find (and enjoy!) food that i can eat, even if it does make me nauseas afterwards, but in the past few days have been able to spend more time out of bed than in it.  so in that regard... my pregnancy is more similar to brady's at this point.  

Extra:  i'm just through the moon excited that i have been feeling better the last couple of days.  two weeks ago, i would have for sure failed a depression questionnaire.  but this week?  not so much.  pregnancy is irrational and i've found that looking forward to christmas (which in my mind will be the week i spend in atlanta after thanksgiving) is giving me hope and motivation and the will to live.  sooo, i've embraced running my heat, checking the sub zero temperatures on my phone, watching the snow flurries out my window, checking for a blanket of snow when i wake up, drinking egg nog, listening to my bing crosby and ella fitzgerald christmas pandora station, and just generally staying warm and cozy in bed with my electric blanket.