2 weeks postpartum

How far along:  2 weeks postpartum (6.11.15)

Total weight gain/loss: 15 lbs down from pregnancy and 15 lbs from pre-pregnancy

Maternity clothes:  nope.  i'm blessed to be able to fit into all of my pre-pregnancy jeans and shirts and whatever although some things (naturally) are just not flattering at this stage.  also, i tried a few of my skinny waist church skirts... i was afraid i might break the zipper they're so tight.  i feel super super skinny (how could you not after losing so much of a belly so fast?!), but as evidenced by trying on my church skirts last saturday night... i'm not quite all the way skinny yet.  ha.    

Sleep:  not bad. i've been sleeping in the same room as elizabeth and unlike with previous kids, i'm not worried about her suffocating or suddenly dying in the night so i haven't been startling wide awake at every squeak and yawn and have actually been able to get decent sleep.  elizabeth has been sleeping a 4-5.5 hour stretch and then a 3.5-4 hour stretch and then when she wakes up around 6:30, i feed her a put her back to bed and she sleeps for another 1-1.5 hours.  i would be much more well rested if i went to bed when she did, but i haven't quite gotten to that point yet.  but still, i sleep pretty well.  not as well rested as i was with abigail, but definitely better off than i was with insomniac brady. 

Best moment this week:  can i just say all the days?  maybe not every day is equally amazing, but all the days are definitely great.  i'm happier than i've been in a loooooong time and i can't get over how amazing that feels every day when i wake up.

Movement:  i remember with abigail that i would feel movement in my belly afterwards that felt like baby kicks and it was so weird to me.  i didn't get that this time around (just the painful contracting of the uterus as it returns back to its original size) and i've just felt really normal.   

Food cravings:  i've been really loving food.  the first day or two, i wasn't really in the mood to eat, but occasionally things would taste good.  and then for the following week, i wanted to down everything in and out of sight.  food tasted so amazing and even if i was stuffed, i would catch myself looking for more food to eat.  my body just wanted to intake as much food as humanly possible... well, more food than humanly possible because, what a cruel joke from nature, my body would get such bad stomach aches after the smallest amount of food.  so i was constantly eating and loving food, but it was also making me feel sick to my stomach 24/7.  so weird.  but for the last 5 or so days, i haven't been getting the stomach aches that i was and i'm able to eat larger amounts of food in one sitting.  sometimes i don't really want to eat, but for the most part i do.  and even ordinary foods sound so tempting to me (like when i made peanut butter and nutella sandwiches for the kids and then kept sneaking some more and more because it looked and tasted so good) and i've been completely carb loading because people kept bringing tons of bread and rolls and brownies (caramel turtle brownies, and cookie brownies, and mint chocolate brownies) and heavy pasta dishes like ravioli lasagna and mac and cheese.  maybe i should be concerned about eating healthy and losing weight but that's really not a priority to me right now.  i've spent too much of my life not liking food or being iffy about if i want to eat because i'm not in the mood.  life is so much happier when food tastes good so i'm just soaking up this amazingness of loving food and enjoying it so much.  also... remember... i feel super skinny.  i know i have a big mass of belly hanging over the waistband of my pants right now but i can still see the chair beneath me because this belly is sooooo much smaller than my 39 week belly.  it's because i'm skinny now.  

Symptoms: i find it amazing how fast my recovery was this time around.  wonderfully enough, i did not tear at all this time around and felt almost normal within 24 hours.  within 72 hours, i really did feel like i'd never pushed a baby out of my lady parts but was in crazy pain from the horrible engorgement of my milk rushing in and having a baby that was too small and sleepy to eat enough.  happily, my milk supply is much better adjusted now and my body feels like a normal nursing body.  so i anticipate feeling like this for about a year.

Gender:  my precious little girl.

What I miss:  maybe just my big belly because that was fun.  but i'm really happy now to be able to move around more easily while i sleep and that i don't have painful kicks and rolls and contractions all the time.  biggest of all of what i don't miss is being so depressed and sad and angry all the time.  so yeah... maybe just my belly and how cool it is to house a human in my body.

Milestones:  i birthed a baby without pain medication, my body is 100% feeding this baby, and holy cow i have a two week old and i'm a mom of three kids!
Theme: the first week was the week of soaking up my newborn and the second week has been the week of life with three kids.
What's different this time around:  with abigail, my recovery and milk coming in was horrific.  like that recovery was the worst pain of my life and then getting clogged ducts and mastitis was even more of the worst pain of my life.  i would rather experience natural childbirth multiple times over before experiencing that again.  with brady, neither was bad at all.  with elizabeth, the recovery was such a breeze that it was practically nonexistent and the milk coming in was horribly painful, but being more experienced this time around, was handled better and hopefully the issue is over and done at this point (instead of lasting forever like with abigail).  newborn elizabeth is very similar to newborn abigail and not at all similar to newborn brady (thank goodness) in eating/sleeping habits, temperament, and appearance.  i'm loving it.  

i really need to write up my thoughts on my first week home with elizabeth but in one word i would describe it as "magical."  elizabeth and i stayed in the guest room for over a week and i spent my days in bed just nursing her, holding her, caring for her, or watching her sleep in her moses basket by the bed.  i love our guest room and the view and the feel of it all and my stay in there that week was positively amazing.  i loved having that space and bed as our own and the kids could come and visit us in there but i never felt like i had to leave elizabeth's side or truck her around the house with me.  it just makes me think of what my friend anne described as "the baby cave" or something.  i took off that time from life and really just relaxed with my newborn.  this is something i'm going to make sure to do (if at all possible) with my future babies... i'm already nostalgic that this time with elizabeth has passed but excited to experience it with my future newborns.  it was perfection.  when i had abigail, my mom was in town and then my mil so i didn't get that all day alone time with my baby because i always had another adult with me (which honestly was completely necessary because my recovery was soooo rough and my mom waited on me hand and foot) or all night alone time (because i was sharing a room with chris and was trying to be sensitive to not waking him up, but also i wasn't sleeping because every time abigail yawned, i was sure she was going to die, and because eventually i had to have abigail sleep in another room so i could actually rest.  with brady, i had him sleep in a moses basket by my bed but was still having to worry about waking chris.  i don't know why i thought i had to bring my newborn to join me in my sleeping area... it makes so much more sense for me to join hers.  anyways, i can't say it enough... it was perfection.

Extra: i have a lot i want to get down about the last two weeks but i do need to go to bed pretty soon so maybe i'll add more later.  the biggest things for me since elizabeth was born have been that i'm so happy to be happy and also, that i am just completely overwhelmed and amazed and grateful for my body.

everyone talks about and worries about postpartum depression.  the nurses and doctors in the hospital all talk about it and warn about it and ask questions and do surveys and on and on to check that you're not depressed.  they did it in the hospital and at my kaiser home visit three days later and again this morning when i took elizabeth in for her 2 week well check.  no one bothered asking me if i was depressed while i was pregnant but they sure do now.  it has made me even more aware of my current happiness.  my entire pregnancy, i had such a hard time getting up in the morning.  i was sad when i woke up and would try to go back to sleep for as long as possible and then try to stay in bed as long as possible and then try to return to my bed as soon as possible and never get out.  now, i wake up happy and looking forward to the day.  when my kids are driving me crazy, i feel like i still have control over myself and the situation and i don't climb in bed and start crying to get away from it all.  i've called and texted friends and family members since elizabeth has been born.  people that i love but have been screening calls from since last fall.  when i pray at night, i literally have trouble coming up with anything except "i'm so grateful to be happy again.  i'm so thankful for my life.  i'm so so happy and so so blessed.  i'm just so happy to be happy."  i'm a broken record of the very best kind.  

i remember after i had abigail that i looked in the mirror at my leftover belly and was blown away by how sad and gross it looked.  after brady, i didn't care because i knew better.  this time, i feel like i know even better than before.  holy cow, my body has grown three kids.  my body has grown my sweet, healthy elizabeth and is now 100% feeding her.  i can't get over how amazing my body is.  i look at her and can't believe that she was just inside of me (and even bigger than she currently is right now!) and that instead now, she is wearing clothes, in my arms, and my body looks normal again.  two weeks.  how does all of that happen in just two weeks?  my body grows this baby, knows exactly when it should come out and how to get it out, delivers this baby so perfectly, and then, right on cue, develops a way to feed this baby and provide for all of its needs and deliver tons of milk to it the very next day.  as lisa said... "you literally harvested a human from your body."  i definitely have tons of stretch marks (none new... just the ones from abigail) and my belly still protrudes and i'm 15 lbs over my pre-pregnancy weight but i don't care.  i honestly, truly, 100% do not even care.  what my body has done is so insanely incredible.  it doesn't look as good as it did 10 years ago, but i love it and appreciate it waaaaay more now than i ever have before.  i love my body so much and am so thankful for it.  this whole experience is such a miracle.  i am completely in awe.

6.11.15 at 2 weeks postpartum

6.11.15 at 2 weeks postpartum

6.11.15 at 2 weeks postpartum

37 weeks

How far along:  37 weeks  (5.14.15) ...compared to abigail at 37 weeks and brady at 37 weeks

Total weight gain/loss: 28.5 lbs

Maternity clothes:  yes...  same as before.  i finally got out my maternity g tops.  don't ask why it took so long but eventually i got sick of trying to pull down my usual tops so the hem wouldn't show through my shirt and leave a line across my lower belly.  annoying that they don't taper in at the bottom though because then it's a problem of them bunching up at the waist of my pants.  how do i get a spot on the committee that designs g's??? 

Sleep:  not bad.  my dreams have been really lowkey and even normal almost.  one night i had a dream that i went into labor when i was already at the doctor's office (getting my cold checked out) and my labor progressed pretty pain free and really fast (maybe 15 minutes or so until my body was pushing my baby out) and then i was all "crap! i need to text chris and tell himi to hurry over here!" so i willed my body to wait... and by the time he arrived, i was no longer in labor and my baby was all safe and nestled in my uterus again.  but also, there was one night that i woke up and couldn't even remember re dreamt about.  

Best moment this week:  mother's day!  my honey rocked it and i felt totally taken care of and spoiled.

Movement:  even more intense than before if that's even possible.  also, baby got hiccups for the first time (that i've noticed) during second or third hour at church on sunday.

Food cravings:  i eat just because it's necessary.  i have zero motivation to prepare anything that requires more time or energy than egg salad sandwiches.  the teriyaki salmon that klaudette made on sunday was really tasty though.  i sure do love salmon. 

Symptoms: same as before but with a whole lotta pregnancy depression.  also, i've been having some sciatic pain... nothing super sharp or horrendous like with my pregnancy with abigail (there were times when i would literally fall on the floor or be unable to walk because the pain was so severe), but it's like a painful cramp on my left side depending on how i'm standing or sitting or sneezing (i've had a cold this week).   luckily it's not very noticeable and it's just something weird to make note of.  the pregnancy depression is pretty debilitating though.

Gender:  girl  ; )

What I miss:  being happy and motivated.  i'm either laying in bed, or wishing that i was laying in bed.  sad but true.

Milestones:  reaching full term!
Theme: the week of having a cold and laying in bed 24/7
What's different this time around/extra:  well, i just read through my 37 week posts with brady and abigail and things are sounding pretty similar!  minor differences are that with abigail, i was still getting tons of stretch marks and, so far as i'm aware, haven't gotten any more with brady's pregnancy or this pregnancy.  also, with abigail, i remember that i had itching so bad, i would scratch to the point of drawing blood and having scabs on my belly.  sorry, gross but true.  i used to have to take bags of peas and corn from the freezer and ice my belly to make it numb so i couldn't feel the itching anymore.  most everything else seems to be pretty similar.  all i wanted to do was lay down, my baby was moving like crazy, i was getting nostalgic for pregnancy to end, i was stressing about not being ready or having everything done that needed to be done, i wasn't crazy about eating, and... i was depressed.  it actually made me feel so much better just now to reread my 37 week post with brady and see just how depressed i was because it makes me feel not so alone (even if i am reading about myself) and because it reminds me that this is just pregnancy... this is just how i am when i'm pregnant and it's not something that'll last forever or something that means i'm a horrible person or a horrible mother.  i feel so blessed that my body handles pregnancy so well, but this pregnancy i've had to hesitate when someone asks me how i feel about being pregnant.  i'm all "oh i love it!  but it does make me really depressed and i lay in bed a lot and spend a lot of time crying" as if that even makes sense.  but it's true.  i love being pregnant, but being pregnant makes me hate everything else.  certain things (that a lot of people wouldn't even give a second thought to) completely drive me crazy and give me horrible rage.  but as i said, it gives me comfort to recognize that i'm experiencing pregnancy depression (strangely, i never got the third trimester depression survey this time around) and that i'm not just this horrible lazy person.  i mean, i am, but it's with reason.  saturday, monday, tuesday, and wednesday of this week all looked pretty similar and it made it easier for me to realize how the depression manifests itself in my behavior.  i did not bother getting dressed.  if i put clothes on, it was late in the day, and only because i was cold, and normally was a hoodie or a shirt with holes and either my giant gray girls camp sweats or yoga pants if i was being a little more fancy.  i didn't bother to put on makeup or wash off my previous makeup.  i regularly go lots of days in a row without showering.  i sometimes don't even bother to put in my contacts because even that seems overwhelming and like too much work.  i don't cook.  i don't clean.  my kitchen hasn't been swept in at least a week and it has enough food on the floor to feed a small african country.  for the last week and a half, my honey has cleaned the kitchen every night that he's been in town.  i yell at my children and actually prefer not to be around them.  even when i wake up at 7:30, i don't get out of bed til after 11 or whenever brady eventually yells at me to get him out of his crib.  i make my kids oatmeal for breakfast if i'm ambitious and then i lay in bed while they eat.  if i'm extra unable to handle life, i have abigail get bananas for the both of them to eat.  i pour one cup of water and have them share, instead of actually getting two cups of water.  i can't look at anything without immediately tracing back in my mind how it's screwed up by abigail (messed up curtains, toys or shoes left out, something broken, etc.) and yesterday, i literally cried when brady finished my box of chocolates that he stole from my nightstand.  gone are the days of me bursting with love and pride at my precious little children.  i mostly just wander around my house and wonder "why on earth can they not just listen or do a SINGLE thing that i've asked or that they know they're supposed to do?!"  and then of course i spend too much time online trying to research new parenting techniques to fix my children because obviously i'm their mother and i'm the reason they're so screwed up because i've failed them.  and then i give up and cry myself to sleep again and then wake up and cry some more.  i'm not looking for any sympathy, i just want to get this all down so that when i'm experiencing this yet again with my next pregnancy... i'll have this to comfort me.  and just so you don't get too worried... i will say that not every day is horrible.  i mean, today i showered (and got dressed and did my hair and makeup), fed myself, kept up with the dishes, have enjoyed my children more and been annoyed less, went to the library for story time (it's the first time i've left the house since sunday night), and have kept my patience about things that would normally be annoying to me and even cause me to yell, scream, and cry.  i won't lie... it's been a pretty good day.  but as far as things go generally, just forgive me for not returning your calls/texts/etc.  it's not because i don't love you.  it's just because i'm depressed and i want to be alone.  

ps- i went back to the library website and put the hypnobirthing book on hold again (well, the 3rd edition... i'd already requested the 4th edition) and that turned out to be a good move because i'm still on hold for the 4th edition (and have been since april 30th or something) but got my hands on the 3rd edition today!  so now i need to study up and review.  yikes!

5.14.15 at 37 weeks

5.14.15 at 37 weeks

36 weeks

How far along:  36 weeks  (5.7.15)

Total weight gain/loss: 28 lbs

Maternity clothes:  yes... same as before.  i went to the temple tuesday.  if i go again before this baby is born then i will for sure need to rent a temple dress. i was thinking of renting one this time around, but i forgot until i was already in the dressing room and i didn't have any cash anyways and i wasn't sure if the temple took visa.  ; )  anyways, i looked absolutely ridiculous and my friends had a good laugh.  

Sleep:  not bad at all.  my dreams are really low key.  last night, i had a dream that i was at walmart and was trying to find all the stuff on my shopping list and was buying weird things like store bought beef jerky because ibotta was having $4 back rebates on stuff that only cost half that much.  

Best moment this week:  definitely monday night.  honey got back from his trip and we went out to dinner at carrabbas for our anniversary.  happy 8 years to us!  we talked about baby names and when we guessed the baby would come and he told me all about his trip and it was perfection.  i ordered the lobster ravioli, which was divine, and the waitress gave us a scoop of ice cream with caramel sauce and candied nuts with a candle on top.

Movement:  just holy cow, she never stops moving!  and it is intense!  lots of feet in the ribs and knees and elbows all over.  i won't lie... it's frequently uncomfortable and painful.  my doctor asked about her movement and i told her it never stopped and it was just constant jabbing and rolling and everything and she said that was great and a good sign of a healthy baby.  

Food cravings:  i'm not a huge fan of eating, but it isn't terrible.  i'm normally just not in the mood for anything and i get full really easily.  i still like chocolate chips though.  and scrambled eggs and egg salad sandwiches.  i've noticed that i have less of a tolerance for junk food and i feel gross when i eat it.  so if i have a morning with not a lot of nutritional value, by 3 o clock, i'm craving some squash or zucchini.  so basically, i'm kind of a picky eater again.  i picked going out to carrabbas solely because i wanted the lobster ravioli (and because i remember that christopher and i went there two years ago for our anniversary and it's the perfect environment for quiet conversation)... but i checked out the rest of the menu when i got there anyways and wouldn't you know, i had no interest in any other thing on the menu.  the plus side about getting full so easily was that after the initial bread (with olive oil and herbs and balsamic vinegar) and house salad, i really only needed to eat a small part of my entree (which is always a small serving anyway because it's lobster ravioli) before i was completely full.  so i got to bring home leftovers... which always makes me happy.  ; )

Symptoms: nausea and headache and backache and fatigue and lack of motivation and highs and lows of emotions and all of those sorts of things.  nothing that's getting in my way of life (except for all the bad days brought on by the pregnancy emotions... but i'm able to handle it better, knowing that it's just because i'm pregnant) so i'm still very much enjoying pregnancy.  several times this week, i've gotten lightheaded and sick like i'm about to pass out, but if i sit down and cool down (if i'm hot) then it goes away within a minute.  i feel really good so i'm still doing everything i normally would, but occasionally my body will really let me know that i need to slow down... and i'm not too proud to listen.

Gender:  i am happy to report that baby is still a girl!  and that we're getting super close to deciding on a name/nicknames/spelling... but as before, no official announcement til it's all set in stone on the birth papers.  i'm not a super decisive person so it's really not safe to go ahead monogramming anything right now.  ; )

What I miss:  fitting into my temple clothes... ; )  and having more control over my emotions and happiness.

Milestones:  i've got less than a month to go!
Theme: the week of ups and downs
What's different this time around:  with abigail, movement was slowing down... this time, not so much.  also, with abigail, i was getting comments about being pregnant with my third (because i was a nanny to two boys at the time) so this time it's actually cool that i AM super pregnant with my third.  dreams do come true! with brady, i was enjoying eating more than what i currently am.  but that makes sense because morning sickness during that pregnancy was a breeze... whereas i'm still getting it regularly in the evenings this time around.  

Extra:  i had an appointment on monday and met with my actual doctor, dr. walker.  i really like her.  she wasn't my doctor last time around, but she was the doctor on call that delivered brady.  she's always so nice and friendly and upbeat.  she brought in an ultrasound machine (i totally wasn't expecting this) and i told her i'd never had an ultrasound after the 20 week ultrasound with either of my previous pregnancies and she was blown away.  "how did they know if your baby was head down?!?!"  ha, i just shrugged.  anyways, she was happy to see that baby was nicely head down.  and i asked if she could confirm that baby was still a girl... which she did... and she is.  ; )  i asked her if i should take another hospital tour (they've been doing construction on the hospital so i wasn't sure how much is different now) and she said definitely yes because she's concerned about me getting to the hospital in time.  i told her i didn't waste time last time after i KNEW i was in labor and she said that i should come to the hospital this time around even if i just think i might be in labor.  i told her i would have a list of friends to call to watch my kids and she said it was fine if i needed to just bring my kids to the hospital with me.  i mean, hopefully my labor won't be any faster than it was with brady, but we're just trying to be prepared as best we can. she'd previously mentioned/asked about induction, but i told her i've only heard horror stories about it and wanted nothing to do with it.  luckily, she was really relieved and happy about that and fully supported my decision to wait for things to happen naturally.  everything at the appointment looked and measured and seemed to be just right so that's great.  i think i must be pretty straightforward as far as pregnant women go because she ended the appointment with an enthusiastic "i love pregnant women like you!"  ha.  

y'know who i wasn't as crazy about though? the nurse that was checking my blood pressure and everything.  she started out nice enough and was all "how're you feeling? great? that's good, you look good." and i was all "thanks, it's really fun to have a belly."  and she couldn't resist making a comment that was something like "well, it won't be fun for long" or something like that.  that has got to be by far my biggest pregnancy pet peeve... why do people insist on treating pregnancy like a horrible thing? or constantly feeling like they need to inform you of impending doom and gloom?  it drives me crazy.  pregnancy is such a crazy amazing miracle and there are a million and one women who have felt the intense sorrow of not being able to experience it.  so why would you say something as ungrateful and superficial as "it won't be fun for long" when you don't even know the whole story?!  either the lady is having a hard time and is already ungrateful for the aches and pains pregnancy brings and doesn't need you to add to it... or, she's glad for the experience and your comment will never apply to her.  i'll hop off my soapbox now, but come on, does anyone else feel the same way?

also, abigail is still dead set on naming our baby "vaseline" and we've been trying to be even more direct than before about how that will NOT be the name of her new baby sister.  she hasn't been very receptive to that though.  case in point... playing with her friends on wednesday afternoon, abigail suggested "vaseline!" as a name for whatever her friends were trying to name.  the 8 year old present was all "but isn't that a girl name? isn't that your baby sister's name?"  i about died.  apparently people are naming their kids such strange names these days that this 8 year old has no problem recognizing vaseline as an acceptable girl's name.

and, oh my goodness! i scheduled my last two appointments and my hospital tour (which i'm going on tonight) and i preregistered with the hospital and it's so crazy to me that this pregnancy is almost over!  yikes!  no!  i'm not ready to have three kids yet!  and ohheavensanewborn!  anyways, that's a little surreal to me.

and if i haven't mentioned it before, this is definitely the most nervous i've ever been about birthing a baby.  with abigail, i had a feeling i'd be late and that it would be a long and peaceful (epidural!) labor lasting roughly 24 hours.  i was late and, even though my labor was only 7 hours and my epidural didn't kick in til i was at a 10 and ready to push, it was pretty peaceful and all happened in good timing.  with brady, i was a little nervous (second labors are frequently half the length of time as the first) thinking i might have a 3.5 hour labor and i might go a few days early.  but hey, i'd practiced my hypnobirthing and surely everything would go pretty similarly to last time, right?  well, he was more than a week early, i was in denial about being in labor, and my contractions came on so fast each time that i would forget about my correct breathing until i was already hyperventilating.  my body was pushing while i was in the car on the way to the hospital, and it all happened so super fast.  after it was over, i was all "that couldn't have been more perfect!" but that's because i was already holding my healthy baby and everything was fine.  this time i'm all "oh my goodness what if this baby comes even sooner?" and "what if this baby comes even faster?" and "what if this labor doesn't go smoothly like my previous labors did?" and all of that sort of stuff.  i'm worried about knowing if i'm truly in labor, but i'm also worried that i'll show up to the hospital too early and there will be some complication or something and then there will be interventions and crap.  i'm not sure.  i just never was nervous for labor before but this time i totally am.  deeeep breaths.  and i'm still on hold at the library for that hypnobirthing book.  hopefully i can get a hold of it soon.

5.7.15 at 36 weeks

5.7.15 at 36 weeks

ps- sorry, i know the outfit sucks for really seeing the belly, but you get what you get.  i just snapped these as i ran out the door for my hospital tour.

pps- after two additional trips... walmart had baby hangers.  woohoo!

35 weeks

How far along:  35 weeks  (4.30.15)

Total weight gain/loss: umm, 27-28 lbs... sometimes i wish i cared.  but then i remember how stressful my last pregnancies were when i cared and i'm glad that this time, i'm just fat and happy.

Maternity clothes:  yes... and i like them.  i rotate through three pairs of jeans (paris blues, red blue cheap ross jeans, and my favorite maternity skinnies from last pregnancy) and the several maxi skirts i have.  i love dressing my bump and i love when people tell me i look cute.  being pregnant is so fun.  it makes me feel so special. 

Sleep:  it's been steadily improving the past few weeks.  my dreams are consistently normal and basic, i'm able to fall asleep just fine (as long as i've taken my sleeping pill... without it, i'll lay awake indefinitely), my body is comfortable, and i can, for the most part, sleep uninterrupted until 7:30 or 8.  i'm sure soon enough that i'll start waking up during the night to go to the bathroom (occasionally i will get up to use the bathroom when chris is getting up and showering and everything), but until then, i'll just enjoy what i've got going.  this is probably the best i've slept all pregnancy since the crazy dreams have finally subsided.  

Best moment this week:  maybe my parents making it home safely from nepal after the earthquake?  ; )  or tuesday night.  honey came home and grilled dinner for us.  i made the our best bites recipe for grilled stuffed zucchini and we also had hotdogs.  we downed so much food and it was delicious.  we were all happy and gathered around the table for a delicious dinner.  and honey got up from the table and started cleaning everything up and i helped him while our kids played and danced in the great room and it was just one of those nights where everything flowed so nicely.  perfect to have that night together before all of his upcoming travel. 

Movement:  man, this has really been kicked up a notch this week!  it is constant and powerful and obvious.  even as i type this, my stomach is shifting all over the place.  several times this week, i've had my arm semi propped on my belly as i'm reading something on my phone and my belly is moving so much, it's as if my phone is going to get sea sick from all the rocking.  it kind of makes it tricky to read such a small screen!  also, the kicking in my ribs is even more painful and uncomfortable.  all of it has been really really obvious and in your face compared to the previous weeks.  

Food cravings:  i like eating.  i wish i wasn't so lazy about making stuff though.  things i've enjoyed this week have been hummus with red bell peppers, that grilled stuffed zucchini (a lot!), and chocolate chips.  when i think of chocolate chips, i pretty much want them right away.  i also have had a strong urge for oreos anytime i see or hear them mentioned (for example, some article online went viral about a colorado mom that sent oreos to school in her kid's lunch and they got taken away by a teacher) and want them sooo bad, but i don't have any oreos around so i don't know if they would hit the spot as well as i imagine them.  last night i had kettle corn which i usually love, but it just wasn't doing it for me.  oooo, i've also really been liking my chocolate peanut butter smoothies (i know i eat like crap, but i do add spinach and baby carrots to these).  oh, and maybe it was from the week before, but mmm, i made some banana muffins that were to die for and i've been really wanting more of those.  i've noticed that i eat in the afternoon to help myself stay awake, but a lot of it is crappy junk food or candy and it makes me feel sick.  i have a lower tolerance for junk it seems.  i've really been loving fresh veggies though.  squash and zucchini with plenty of butter and salt and pepper?  yes please... i'll take the whole pan.  also, the watermelon juice slushie (just blended up frozen watermelon) i made for the kids the other day was oddly satisfying. it tasted extra extra good.  

Symptoms: nausea, headaches, depression, fatigue, and back pain (the sharp kind on my right side) that may or may not be related to pregnancy.  

Gender:  i'm so excited for this little girl. having abigail and brady who are so different in personality and appearance, i'm just curious what's in the works with this kid!

What I miss:  not feeling so elderly.  this past week, it's like my body has suddenly started to seem pregnant.  i don't feel uncomfortable at all, but there are times that i go to lean over to reach something or pick brady up and i realize that my stomach is literally too big to allow me to accomplish what i'm trying to do.  like i'm just a few inches short of reaching what i want, because when i'm sitting on the floor and trying to grab brady's pants, my belly just gets in the way and i have to scoot my whole body closer to get my finger tips on them.  or like how i took the kids in the yard yesterday so they could play while i did yardwork.  this is normally something pretty easy for me and something i enjoy doing and after a few hours, i always feel really accomplished.  well, i literally lasted 32 minutes (according to the texts on my phone) before i felt like i was about to pass out.  i mean, sweating, spinning head, trouble breathing, lightheaded, nauseous like i was about to throw up, seeing spots, unsteady on my feet... the whole shebang.  i seriously got next to nothing done because even in that half hour, i was moving slower than molasses.  but what really made me feel old and decrepit... when i couldn't get off of the toilet the other day after i went to the bathroom.  it literally took me three or four tries (and almost falling down during my failed attempts) before i could stand up.  although, that was from the shooting back pain that caused me to collapse once i got to a certain point each time.  maybe it wasn't even pregnancy related... but on top of everything else, i'm definitely feeling like my body has its limitations.

Milestones:  i hit the 35/35 where i'm 35 weeks pregnant and only have 35 days to go!
Theme: the week of telling people i'm due in a month.  seriously, i'm constantly getting asked when i'm due.  i won't lie though... i like it.
What's different this time around:  with abigail, i still had 40 more days of being pregnant... with brady only 24.  yikes!  i wonder how much longer i have with this one!

Extra:  i'm a little worried about the timing of when this kid is going to come.  i mean, we should be good since honey doesn't have any travel scheduled in the three weeks before i'm due (have i mentioned before that he was supposed to go out of town december 19th last time and brady was born on the 18th?), but still, i worry.  i worry about getting to the hospital in time and i just worry about how everything will play out.  i still need to schedule a hospital tour (i took one last time and it's the only reason that brady wasn't born in the parking lot), because even though it's the same hospital as last time, they've done a lot of work on it and it's still undergoing a lot of construction, so i really want to know the specifics on where to park/valet the car, check in, etc.  

also, i haven't done any practicing on my pain management breathing techniques for labor or delivery so i'm feeling maybe i need to get on that... stat.  

but seriously, when i was pregnant with abigail, i was so sure i'd go a week late, and everything followed my plan and it was great.  with brady, i was pretty confident that i would at least hit my due date or be very close... and that isn't how it went down.  this time, i know going early is a possibility, so i have the added awesomeness of being able to worry about being unprepared and rushed to get to the hospital.  what if i'm at walmart and i start getting contractions and i have to hurry home to get my bag packed (let's be honest, i'm going to want my straightener and hair brush in there and i'm not going to keep all of that in my car) and i won't be able to take a shower or get ready before i go.  i know all of this doesn't matter in the grand scheme of things (unless my baby ends up being born in a car or something) but i can't help thinking about it.

i got out all the baby stuff and was putting it away in the dresser in the guest room when i remembered my aversion to having clothes in a dresser (abigail is the only one in this family with a dresser... and it only holds a small portion of her clothes... several drawers are completely empty) and decided i needed to buy a hundred baby hangers.  well, of course when i went to walmart, they were 100% out of baby hangers.  annoying.  so the clothes are currently all sprawled all over the guest room and it is complete chaos.  i'm going to go back to walmart tomorrow and hopefully they'll have an abundance of hangers.

4.30.15 at 35 weeks

4.30.15 at 35 weeks

34 weeks

How far along:  34 weeks  (4.23.15)  on granny's birthday!!!

Total weight gain/loss: 26 lbs

Maternity clothes:  yes... i even bought a few new things which i know i shouldn't this late in the game but i did anyway.  i got a striped shirt from ross because it was super long and a lot of my current maternity shirts are already getting short.  and i got a maternity dress from old navy because i wanted it last time, and it was on sale and with my discount it ended up being less than $10.  

Sleep:  not too bad.  my dreams haven't been too crazy, and even if i wake up during the night, i can fall back asleep pretty easily.  i'm still waking up on my back frequently though.  whoops.  

Best moment this week:  monday.  i had a pretty great monday.

Movement:  it's pretty constant.  does the kid ever sleep?!

Food cravings:  i've been liking chocolate chips again the last few days.  especially late at night or during the middle of the night.  for some reason, when i wake up in the middle of the night, i need chocolate chips.

Symptoms: nausea, backache, headache, fatigue, depression

Gender:  girl!  ; )

What I miss:  being happy and having more patience and love for my kids.  this past week has been emotionally trying for me and i pity my kids that they got me as a mother.  

Milestones:  i only have six weeks left!  yikes!  how did this even happen?!
Theme: the week of more bad days than good.  i'm somewhat comforted that i was feeling this way last pregnancy too because i can blame pregnancy for these bad feelings, but it's also kind of discouraging that i'll likely feel this way in future pregnancies as well...  there are worse things though.  all in all, my pregnancies have treated me well.
What's different this time around:  maybe i've mentioned it already, but i'm still insanely grateful not to have the insanely itchy skin that i had with abigail.  i keep thinking it's because my skin is already stretched out, but that can't be the real reason because i was living in california that time and colorado is even more dry... and it wasn't just my belly... it was my entire body... which isn't stretched out.  but seriously... so so so extremely thankful to not be dealing with that this time around.

Extra:  i'm gonna have a baby soon!

4.26.15 at 34 weeks, 3 days

4.26.15 at 34 weeks, 3 days

33 weeks

How far along:  33 weeks  (4.16.15)

Total weight gain/loss: 26 lbs

Maternity clothes:  yes.  i've been having a lot of fun dressing the bump this week.  might as well since soon enough, my shirts will be too short and i'll be cursing the fact that it's socially necessary to wear clothes. 

Sleep:  it's really not bad, especially if i can go to sleep early and not wake up til sometime after 7:30...  my dreams this week have even been somewhat normal at times.  like not every single dream is about someone trying to kill me or not being able to talk or being suck in a foreign third world country when the government is getting overthrown by rebels... ; )  make no mistake, they're still really odd (as most dreams are), but last night, involved a few friends, and some treats like root beer and powdered donuts on a party bus. 

Best moment this week:  my favorite thing of this week has probably (if we're talking pregnancy related) just been getting dressed and going out.  and soaking up all the incredible weather we've been having.

Movement:  lots of movement... same as before.  she's started getting up in my right rib cage quite a bit, contractions are as they were, and holy cow, sometimes she gets bouncing around in there soooo crazy.  the newest development from the week is that she will really poke my belly somewhere, and i swear my skin has to have a knob sticking out three inches.  i am positively alarmed at the tiny little distance separating her hands from mine when i feel my belly with all her movement.  it's the coolest thing ever.

Food cravings:  it's not horrible, but it's never really fulfilling either.  most days are still cereal for breakfast, eggs for lunch, an apple pear (and copious amounts of chocolate and sugar in the form of various candy) for snack, and something simple for dinner.  my body wants me to constantly feed it... even if i'm not hungry, i reach for sugar of some sort.  i really should focus more on eating healthier foods.  in terms of my eating habits this pregnancy, i've been thinking only of myself and virtually never of my baby that i'm growing.  i suck.  

Symptoms: nausea in the evenings, fatigue in the afternoons, dull back pain, some headaches, and just those sorts of usual things.  nothing that really gets in the way though.

Gender:  i'm so excited for this little girl.  the good thing though is that if she came out a boy... i'd be excited for that kid too.  ; ) 

What I miss:  umm, it's getting really difficult to turn over at night.  so i am starting to miss the ease of that movement.  last night i was cuddled up with christopher but remembered that i hadn't put my phone on silent and plugged it in... so i rolled over to do that and it was so difficult to roll over that i just stayed like that.  a minute later christopher was all "are you coming back?"  ha, i wan't planning on it... because it took so much effort to roll to this side.  it just seemed excessive to roll right back.  

Milestones:  i'm big enough now that i'm constantly getting questions about my due date.  this came on suddenly, but i have a feeling that it's here to stay.
Theme: the week of "when are you due?" begins...
What's different this time around:  ehhh, i dunno, it's probably the same.  i really don't know unless i wanted to go back and reread their weekly update.

Extra:  i'm loving the bump.  seriously.  also, i feel like i write one of these updates every two days... why is time flying by so fast?!  i can't remember if i've mentioned it before, but i'm pretty settled on having our baby be a guest in our guest room.  i need to start pulling out clothing and diapers and blankets and get everything sorted through and set up as much as possible.  i didn't do that sort of stuff for abigail until i was past my due date.  with brady, i was a few weeks ahead of the game and feeling like i was totally on top of things, but it ended up being like 4 days before i had him because he came early.  HA.  so hopefully i can make things happen a little sooner this time.  i keep coming up with excuses though.  and i'm lazy.  basically, i don't want to take away from family time to get this all done, but i also am always hesitant about attempting this when the kids are around because they always want to be involved and brady is always mixing things up and then i get frustrated and give up and the project that should have taken a relatively short amount of time turns into a multiple week mess because brady has strewn things beyond repair and made the situation totally overwhelming for me.  anyways... to do list: get out baby stuff.

4.16.15 at 33 weeks

4/16/15 at 33 weeks

32 weeks

How far along:  32 weeks  (4.9.15)

Total weight gain/loss: 25 lbs... just as an fyi, this is more than i gained with either previous pregnancy.  whoops.

Maternity clothes:  yes... same as before.  there's this old navy maternity dress i found an loved, but it was stil $18 on sale and when i calculated the weeks that i have left... i just couldn't justify it.  but if i was due in october, i would have bought it in a heartbeat.  sooo cute and comfy.  i've gotten a number of comments over the last several weeks from people surprised that i'm still wearing regular jeans.  they're my regular jeans from before, but they were always roomy, and have a huge waist.  i have plenty of jeans that are too small in the waist to button. also, i have very low tolerance for the bella band this time around, as well as the maternity jeans from before that have the full panel.  they do not stay up and i can't handle them falling down all day.  i've got no patience for that. i'm already to the point that i wish my shirts were longer.  wondering how that will pan out in the weeks to come. 

Sleep:  i don't want to jinx anything, but it's been better as of late.  i get so tired reading on my phone in bed that i can just lay it on my nightstand and instantly fall asleep.  i keep waking up on my back still, but i think my hips are positioned enough in a way that i'm not flat on my back and my body is sufficiently tilted.

Best moment this week:  conference on saturday and sunday.  and mom and dad being in town on monday and tuesday.

Movement:  just the same as what it has been.  not too noticeable if i'm up and moving around, but she's constantly moving when i'm sitting or being calm.  i've been having a lot more contractions/baby lodging herself in a corner so i'm frequently experiencing that tight, uncomfortable feeling.

Food cravings:  i like eating just fine.  it's not euphoric, but it's not horrendous either.  so that's nice.  around 3:30 or 4, i still frequently get a headache and nausea but sometimes the nausea isn't even noticeable until after 7 or later, so that's really nice because then i can just take my pills and head to bed.  

Symptoms: not sure why, but i've been experiencing some dull lower back pain which always freaks me out that i'm getting closer to the end of this pregnancy and labor and everything, but it's not terribly inconvenient itself.  other than that, just the usual and i'm feeling pretty great.

Gender:  hopefully a girl!  i only get that one 20 week ultrasound to learn the gender, so hopefully the tech didn't make a mistake!  with abigail and with brady, it was extremely clear what they were... i didn't think the picture was as obvious this time around though so of course i worry in the back of my head that we'll be taken by surprise with a boy.  

What I miss:  not worrying if my shirt is long enough.  ; )  i think that's about it though.  i love the belly. being pregnant is so cool.

Milestones:  i have less than two months to go!
Theme: the week of contractions getting really noticeable.
What's different this time around:  with abigail, from what i remember, thing are pretty on par with previous pregnancies... except for the fact that i've gained more weight this time around.

Extra:  i had my 32 week appointment today.  it was once of those quick and pointless appointments... it was nice though because i was in and out super fast.  the np again commented on how active my baby was (especially when she kept kicking at the doppler when we were getting the heart rate) and asked what i ate for breakfast.  i confessed that i had cereal again, but it was life this time instead of captain crunch.  so she was surprised that my baby was going so crazy.  she also commented on how i was still wearing regular jeans.  i always just feel like i'm hanging out with a friend during our appointments... i have trouble remembering that she's my doctor.  i like that though.  next time i'll be meeting with dr. walker... and i'll be 36 weeks!  yikes.  hopefully i'll be able to remember to ask her my questions about early labor and what to look for and basically everything else that worries me about knowing if i'm really in labor while still making it to the hospital in time.

4.12.15 at 32 weeks, 3 days

4.12.15 at 32 weeks, 3 days

31 weeks

How far along:  31 weeks  (4.2.14)

Total weight gain/loss: 24 lbs?  it was 22.5 or 23 all week but after texas roadhouse last night, i'm a solid +24...

Maternity clothes:  yes... i have one pair of maternity pants and a lot of maternity shirts that i wear... that's basically it though.  i'm normally wearing regular jeans, and my undershirts are normal tanks/shade shirts.  i try to wear some sort of cardigan every day to conceal my love handles and camouflage how wide i am from front to back.  that side view... it's alarming.  

Sleep:  not awesome.same as it has been.  crazy dreams.  and i know i toss and turn a lot especially in the am hours.  i try not to look at the time, but i've gotten pretty good at judging the time by if my honey is still sleeping, in bed looking at his phone, or already left for work.  sometimes i have to get out of bed in the early hours to go to the bathroom, but i can always go back to sleep so that's pretty good.

Best moment this week:  mom and dad coming into town!  they came tuesday morning and left today at noon.  it was a really great 24 hours.

Movement:  just what it has been.  i feel like the punching is declining, but i feel little fists and elbows rolling all over when i'm driving and sitting down.  also, like before, she's most active when i'm resting, especially in the morning and at night.

Food cravings:  i really don't get excited about food, but for the most part, if i don't let myself get too hungry, then i don't feel too sick.  it's pretty normal to feel somewhat sick after 4pm, but i can normally find something my stomach can handle so it doesn't escalate or really interfere with life.  i made butternut squash the other day and i was pretty excited about it.  but as it was cooking, i'd walk into the kitchen and get grossed out by the smell.  eventually, i locked myself in my room for the night and my honey took it out of the oven for me, let it cool, and put it in the fridge for me.  i haven't gotten it out yet, but i should probably try to heat that up and feed it to my kids soon.  especially since abigail was begging me for it the whole time it was cooking... i guess it seemed more appealing to her.  i'm still eating cereal for breakfast but it's not really hitting the spot... also, i'm becoming increasingly sensitive to how it gets soggy at the end.  i can't handle that.  and one day this week, i drank some chocolate milk and it was tasting good... fifteen minutes later, i drank some more and it tasted off... and has tasted off since.  ugh, pregnancy is so weird. 

Symptoms: nausea, big belly, headaches, backaches, fatigue and laziness, weird dreams and restless sleep.

Gender:  girl!  after my parents leave next week (they're stopping by again after conference), i'll hopefully get out and sort through the bins of girl clothes that i have and start to get some of that stuff out and probably hung up in the guest closet.  i'd rather tackle that now, while i semi have energy and motivation for it instead of leaving it for the end when i may have nothing left in me.  and brady ended up coming early, and i'd just barely done all the prep the week before so i kind of felt like i was cutting things a bit closer than i probably should have.

What I miss:  not too much.  it's so cool being pregnant.

Milestones:  i'm kind of freaking out... single digit weeks to go!
Theme: the week of experiencing it all and loving it.
What's different this time around:  i think as of right now... there are few differences between this pregnancy and my pregnancy with abigail... 

Extra:  when i woke up this morning, literally my first thought upon opening my eyes was "CRAP! it's thursday! i'm 31 weeks already!" followed by a few more crap crap, how did this happen, maybe i'm mistaken, crap i'm not.  so it's safe to say that i'm still freaking out about how fast pregnancy is going.  i'll be totally fine to go past my due date, but i'm planning for this baby to come at the end of may... just in case.  honey said he's not going to be traveling at all after may 13th or something... three weeks before my due date.  so i feel good about that, because brady was born 11 days early, and my honey was supposed to go out of town at 9 days before my due date... i think that trip ended up getting canceled or rescheduled or maybe he sent someone else instead.  anyways, i told him that this time around, we needed more of a buffer.  especially since my labor with brady was less than 3 hours.  even if he's in colorado... that's not necessarily enough time to get back for the actual birth.  which is another thought i've been stressing.  i wish i knew how long this labor would be lasting and how much time i'll have.  last time was a little close for comfort and i would really really like to have a hospital birth instead of some roadside delivery.  also, i know i need to start practicing some hypnobirthing breathing (and train my honey on how to coach me through breathing if i start hyperventilating again) but i'm still in denial/dragging my feet because i would just like to enjoy pregnancy more without having to worry about the whole baby part yet.  

anyways, it's all going well right now.  i'm enjoying pregnancy, despite the odd symptoms and inconveniences.  i was at old navy today and the cashier girl asked if i was having another girl (based on the clothes i was buying) and said something like "i think i saw you in here a few months ago and you were not showing nearly as much as you are now" or something like that that was phrased nicely but really meant "holy cow you've gotten really huge really fast!"  she probably remembers from when i went in in january after finding out this kid is a girl since that was the most recent time i was there.  anyways, i remember her because there's only two or three cashiers that i ever see working there.  but i'm sure she gets a million and one customers coming through. so now i'm just a little self conscious that i'm so memorable with my pregnant belly and two rambunctious children... ha.

4.8.15 at 31 weeks, 6 days

4.8.15 at 31 weeks, 6 days

30 weeks

How far along:  30 weeks  (3.26.15)

Total weight gain/loss: 22 lbs

Maternity clothes:  yes... same as before. 

Sleep:  not awesome.  the dreams are sooooo crazy and half the time i feel like i'm awake.  so i've been feeling more sleepy during the day although i've avoided naps so that's been good.

Best moment this week:  i could say getting my new minivan on saturday.  but the true best moment of the week was actually probably on sunday night when i installed abigail and brady's carseats side by side in the second row of it.  my car is so gigantic that their enormous carseats can easily fit next to each other and i'll have plenty of room for an infant seat too.  three kids on that second row and not even feeling squished?  yes, that's my best moment of this week.  

Movement:  just a whole lot of movin' and shakin' going on around these parts.  there's been less big rolls this week and she hasn't been lodging herself in my right side as much.  but she's really active whenever i'm sitting down.  i'm guessing my walking and moving around lulls her to sleep but whenever i sit down in bed, she's all over the place.  it's pretty fun.

Food cravings:  i hate morning sickness.  it is back.  although thankfully it's not horrendous and it typically doesn't come on until 3:30 or 4 in the afternoon.  but the headache and being super picky about food is really annoying.  a few times, i've felt close to throwing up, but luckily haven't.  i'm just so thankful i feel pretty fine in the mornings so that i don't ever get really starving or worried about nutrition.  my favorite food of the week was saturday at steph's baby shower... her friend, lydia, made these amazing gluten free cinnamon pecan muffins that were to die for.  the taste and texture were so out of this world perfect.  i got the recipe.  i ate two muffins while i was there and took another one with me when i left.  ; )  

Symptoms: afternoon/evening nausea and headaches, fatigue, crazy weird dreams.

Gender:  my heart is happy about another little girl to wear abigail's too small clothing.  

What I miss:  waking up feeling like i actually went to sleep.  these dreams and airplane sleep are getting the best of me and when i wake up, i'm just needing some down time.  i want to feel unconscious... just close my eyes and see black.  

Milestones:  i hit 30 weeks!  holy cow, only ten to go!
Theme: the week of morning sickness gaining momentum
What's different this time around:  ehh, i'm too lazy for this question.

Extra:  i'm shocked at how many people ask how far along i am or when i'm due and then follow up with "ohh, yeah, you've got a ways to go" or "yeah, that's not for a while" or whatever.  umm, am i the only one that feels like ten weeks might as well be four minutes?!  i am sooo not ready to have three kids.  or a newborn.  to start this whole thing over from the very beginning with another tiny human?  holy cow.  so i'm a little bit freaking out with how fast pregnancy is flying by... although i'm apparently the only one, because everyone else thinks june 4 is forever away...

3.27.15 at 30 weeks, 1 day

3.27.15 at 30 weeks, 1 day

29 weeks

How far along:  29 weeks  (3.19.15)

Total weight gain/loss: 20 lbs.  for the past two weeks, the numbers have been higher during the week, but when thursday rolls around, it's already come back down again.  i'll take it though!

Maternity clothes:  same as before.  i'm honestly shocked that i'm doing so weel with my jeans still.  although the ones that are still fitting fine now are the ones that were always falling off my hips before.  i wore my black maternity dress on sunday for the first time.  

Sleep:  not the best but not horrible.  i hate to complain because i'm not getting out of bed a million times a night for bathroom breaks or up for hours at a time... but i'm still having weird dreams, and the past few nights, i've had a lot of airplane sleep where i feel like i'm awake and dreaming.  also, i'm waking up more easily so like this morning, i was aware when chris woke up sometime during the four o clock hour and then aware when we went to the bathroom, ran on the treadmill in the basement, shaved, showered, got dressed, etc.  i wasn't wide awake, but i was fully aware of everything going on and just half sleeping through it.  as a result of all of this... i am exhausted all day, every day.  so so so tired.  not falling asleep on my feet like i was with abigail, but i'm almost incapacitated with fatigue.  i spend a lot of time sitting in bed and browsing the internet because i don't have enough energy for life but yet, i can't go to sleep in the middle of the day while the kids are running around.  

Best moment this week:  man, i dunno.  it's been just a fun and normal week.  nothing in particular, but it's all been nice.

Movement:  holy cow it keeps getting stronger and more constant!  what week does it start to slow down from lack of space?  because this is intense.  i love feeling the baby moving all the time, but it's kind of consuming and tiring.  also, i can tell she's getting bigger because she is so down low and so high up in my ribs.  and she still prefers my right side.  

Food cravings:  it's getting kind of hit and miss with eating again.  i still like frosted flakes with whole milk (in bed) every morning.  and i still like my usual scrambled eggs on toast for lunch.  but after 2 o clock... food just looses its appeal and it's such a struggle to come up with something to feed the kids.  and i haven't made a proper dinner for honey since we got back from our trip.  i need to get with the program but i'm just so tired and any food requiring more than five minutes of prep time just isn't worth it.  i will say that i've had a few otter pops this week that have really hit the spot.  

Symptoms: fatigue, laziness, weird dreams, airplane sleep, headaches, and nausea

Gender:  girl  ; )

What I miss:  having energy

Milestones:  ehhh...
Theme: the week of being sooo tired
What's different this time around:  with abigail, i started getting really tired during the beginning of the second trimester and it stayed until the end of pregnancy... no burst of energy or nesting at the end.  with brady, i never got the extreme fatigue, but i think i got a normal amount of tired during the third trimester and then got the burst of energy from 36-38 weeks.  so this is just kind of in the middle i guess.  

Extra:  i'm too tired and lazy to think of anything right now.  

3.21.15 at 29 weeks, 2 days

3.21.15 at 29 weeks, 2 days