Showing posts with label what i've been up to. Show all posts
Showing posts with label what i've been up to. Show all posts

Monday, January 29, 2018

catching up a bit

sorry for the lack of blogging... Andrew has been such a crappy sleeper for the past several months (especially in Georgia where he was waking up every two (or less!) hours during the night... and every closet and drawer in my house is in complete disarray and my kids are just really time consuming and I've let myself take some time off from blogging.  as much as I absolutely love writing and posting pictures, it can be pretty time consuming.  thank goodness for the journal my dad gave me for Christmas... it's an every day journal and I can just write a few sentences each day and not feel guilty for not writing more.  I honestly don't know what I would do without it now... it has been such a blessing to me since I'm someone that feels stress at not keeping record of things and events.

anyway, life is good.

over the past week, Abigail has been doing better and our relationship has been going a bit better.  today was big in that I emailed her teacher that she'll be walking home from school each day with our neighbors and I talked to a number of medical professionals on the phone this morning and afternoon (our appointment was cancelled last minute by the doctor not being in the office today) about Abigail's medication and we'll be doubling the dose and hoping to see some positive results.  Abigail walked home from school today for the second time and it is honestly the best thing ever to not load the kids in the car to go pick her up.  and I feel like she's in a better mood when she gets here.

Brady, over the past week or two, has gone down hill, as has our relationship.  apparently these things are inversely related?  he's turned pretty moody and angry and sometimes belligerent.  he says it's because he isn't getting enough sleep and hasn't been napping as much as he needs to so we've been trying to make his naps more of a priority but I don't know that it's helping THAT much.  he's still wonderfully independent and all of his regular good qualities... he's just always angry at me.  I asked him about this and he says he always expects me to say no to his requests so he's just already upset even before he starts asking me a question.  it's not horrendous but it does make me pretty sad right now because I feel like I've lost a friend.

Elizabeth is opinionated and headstrong and holy cow, as hilarious as ever.  everything is her FAVORITE.  I don't think she understands that word very well and probably thinks it just means that she likes something.  literally every song she hears, she declares to be her favorite.  on Sunday, our closing song was "come along, come along" and I can't recall ever hearing that song before and, judging by the singing, or lack thereof, I think the rest of the congregation could have said the same thing.  but don't worry, just upon hearing the intro, Elizabeth is enthusiastically proclaiming that "I LIKE THIS SONG!!! IT'S MY FAVORITE SONG!!!"  also, we decided to all go as a family to Abigail's "it's great to be eight" meeting on Sunday night and Elizabeth had a lot of loud gas.  after each loud toot she's all, "I tooted!" and then proceeded to do it again.  she has an excellent sense of humor and is also developing a lot of opinions about books that she likes to read and favorite clothing/pj's/boots that she likes to wear.  right before Christmas, Elizabeth flipped a switch and went from being terrified and hating (like SCREAMING bloody murder through the whole experience) baths and showers, to being obsessed with showers and begging multiple times a day to take a shower.  Chris was cracking up the other day when he came home from work and saw us all and then was all "you've got the shower on while you just sit in bed?!" and I had to tell him that actually Elizabeth was showering.  she's also started requesting again to use the potty.  I had told her before that she for sure had to wait until after the holidays but I'm still going to try holding her off on that til she's closer to three or potty trains herself.  I can hope, right?

Andrew is great.  he's been sick with the worst congestion though... like soooo horrific.  I try to nose suck him as best I can but he still nurses and sounds like he's drowning and gasping for air.  he'll take three sucks and then turn his head to the side and breath like he's catching his breath for a bit and then he'll latch on and suck three times and do it again.  like he's swimming or something.  he's still mostly happy though, thank goodness, and has actually started sleeping longer just in the last three nights.  since he was previously waking around 11:30, 2:30, 4:30, and 7:30, this is a huge improvement to have him wake just once around 4:30 or 5.  we'll see if he's maturing and really starting to sleep longer stretches or if he's just doing this because this sickness is really taking it out of him.  also, I finally broke down and bought a baby scale.  his weight percentile is less than 0.1% and he only gained 5 or 6 ounces between his 4 and 6 month appointments.  I had some huge days of stress about it and was freaking out about my milk supply and was trying to supplement with milk from my freezer (but he either wasn't hungry or didn't want milk from a bottle) and it was just not great... all of that was happening the week before Christmas.  so I took fenugreek to boost my supply and I started nursing him allllll the time.  like at least every hour or two hours throughout the day and night.  I couldn't even tell you how many feedings he was getting in a 24 hour period because I felt like I was just nursing him constantly around the clock.  but I guess it worked because my supply met his needs and I quit taking the fenugreek and he's sleeping longer at night.  I asked his doctors office if I could bring him in for just a weight check to see if my efforts were effective or not and they said there was a copay for that.  I thought that seemed stupid but we have kaiser insurance so a lot of things about it are stupid.  instead of paying the $50 copay, I bought a scale for less than 40.  I'm happy to report that he's broken 13lbs which means that he'd gained over a pound in that month since his 6 month well check... woohoo!  also, I've realized how inaccurate and varying the scale measurements can be with a wiggly baby and I'm wondering how accurate that weight was that was taken at his 6 month appointment.  anyway, he's still less than .1% but he's growing and I know he's eating a lot and peeing a lot so that gives me comfort.  also, he's super vocal and social and happy and is hitting all of his milestones and sitting up and rolling over like a rockstar.  once he gets over this cold, I'm gonna have to get him weaned from the swaddle because he keeps rolling over and getting stuck on his belly.  Abigail did that too at this age but she was a happy beached whale... Andrew is not the happiest when he gets beached.  other random things to note... Andrews cheeks are almost always flushed and he is biting on everything. I'm still in mourning that we lost our Sophie giraffe a week and a half ago when we went to the library one evening.  I've checked their lost and found twice though (they keep a log of everything) and it was never turned in... which makes me worry that maybe it fell out of the car when I made a huge goodwill run on our way to the library but also gives me hope that maybe it's just hiding somewhere in our car even though our car is clean and there's really not anywhere for it to be. ugh.  so I was resorting to Andrew's next favorite toy and that went missing at the gym last week.  we never lose baby toys and now we've lost our favorite two within just a few days of each other!  major fail.  mostly still sad about Sophie though.  for sentimental reasons but also because of that $25 price tag.  let's all pray for a late Christmas miracle that she shows up somewhere.  I have a reward out for her though and told Brady that he'll get the biggest treat ever if he finds that stinking giraffe.  Andrew's gummy little gums neeeeeed it.

man, those quick summaries get longer with each kid.  this is why blogging is so time consuming... I'm too long winded to ever be quick.

anyway...

honey has been doing well... normal work and traveling and more work and travel.  he stays busy but I try for us to at least feel like we get some hang out time every few days.  tonight I felt like we kind of hung out for a good 20 minutes or so while the kids skated in the basement and I made dinner... so that was nice.  it sounds pathetic when I write it out but honestly, we're just kind of at a busy stage of life right now and it is what it is.

I'm hanging in there!  despite the constant mess and disorganization of my house and life in general, my days are happy.  my days are mostly getting Abigail off to school, taking the other three with me to the gym for a bit, doing lunch, quiet time, Abigail's after school stuff (unpacking backpack, homework, etc.), dinner, and bedtime.  it's a good routine we have down.  we've also been trying to make more of an effort to do fun things as a family and this past Saturday was great with going to the wildlife experience, costa vida, the lone tree library, and then watching beauty and the beast as a family.  we all have a good day if we can make a plan and stay focused on our priorities.  also, because that made me think of it... I am sooooo excited about the come follow me curriculum in relief society this year and counsel meetings and whatever other changes they've made that I don't even know the names of.  but for real, so pumped about come follow me and studying conference talks and having more of a discussion during lessons.  it's been so amazing already.

Wednesday, August 23, 2017

I've got goals and ambitions!

today was picture day for Abigail at school.  we started early and somehow managed to get her picture-ready and squeak her to school on time!  woohoo!

Brady got himself dressed and on the stairs called out his typical "BASEBALL PLAYER COMING THROUGH!!!"  he walked in so pleased with himself that I could hardly stand it and then climbed into bed with me and said "I dressed so cool I can't even believe it!" and it put me over the edge.  he is too much.

how could you not fall in love with this guy?  he's so endearing to me.

he's also really skilled and surprised me today with a new trick.  I've never even seen him practice anything relating to standing on his bike seat so it totally took me by surprise that he was so proficient.  he's also really good at riding with one hand and can even ride with no hands for a few seconds at a time.



Jill recommended this book to me on Thursday when we were at her house to see the baby pigs... I ordered it a few days later and it just came today while we were eating lunch outside.  we did the first five lessons in 34 minutes.  they only went so fast because Brady already knows his letter sounds but I thought it would be good to not skip any lessons so we're just doing them quickly instead.  once things get more challenging, I've heard the lessons take at least 20 minutes and sometimes parents split them between two days and also take several days of a break in between lessons.  Brady doesn't love it, but he's extremely motivated by mini marshmallows at the moment so we'll see how things progress with this.  I'm working my way through reading the parent portion.

honey sent me this picture on his drive from Vegas to st. George.

our neighbor's are having sprinkler issues so we had a stream of water washing onto our driveway.  Elizabeth found it and promptly took off her shoes to frolic in the little stream.

she was thrilled.

Abigail got home from school and started spinning.  Brady joined her. surprisingly, no one got seriously injured.






I can't remember what it was, but I made a request and this was her response.

which led to her being keenly interested in exploring her belly button.  we're all pretty easily distracted around here.

lately, I've let go of trying to have a clean house and it's amazing how much else I'm able to do during the day.  today, we spent a ton of time outside, I worked with Brady on reading lessons, I read the intro of the reading book, and I continued to listen to the audiobook of 1, 2, 3, magic which was recommended to me yesterday afternoon by the family therapist that Abigail and I met with.  Chris and I will meet with him again in two weeks and I want to have read the book and had time implementing it before I return.  luckily, our library has hoopla, which I've heard about a lot but never actually used.  I put the book on hold at the library but realized it could be a while before it became available.... but it was instantly available on hoopla, so I made an account, downloaded the app, and was listening to the audio book within minutes. today, I've just had it on play while I've been outside watching the kids or inside nursing Andrew.  I've never been into audio books, but I may have to give them a fair shot because I'm getting in so much more "reading" than what I otherwise would.  I'm over 2 hours in and have less than 5 hours to go.  but I know it's less than that because I'm listening to it at 1.5 speed.  I haven't started using it at all, but tonight with the kids, I kept thinking about how it would come in handy.  as with every other thing, I'm insecure about trying something new because it's hard for me to remember things long term.  it's one thing to parent a child with ADD... it's another thing when the parent also has ADD.  like last year, Abigail did SO well at school with the star chart her teacher did to reward good behavior.  I didn't even attempt anything like that at home because I just can't remember stuff like that.  honestly, it's hard enough for me to remember to get my kid a glass of milk if they ask while I'm cooking dinner or doing anything else in the kitchen.  sooo, wish me luck.  

I feel like I've just got a lot on my mind lately that I've had to think about... and I know it's nothing for anyone else, but for me it feels like I'm juggling ten million things.  

Brady is now in the afternoon A class at preschool for just Tuesday/thursday and his first day will be tomorrow.
my paint color is still getting considered.  HA.
I'm planning to join the rec center gym.
I'm hoping to do reading lessons with Brady during quiet time.
we checked out a tablet from the library that's loaded with math games that Brady can also do for a bit during quiet time.
I'm listening to 1, 2, 3, magic on audiobook and will implement it before our next appointment... hopefully with all three kids... Elizabeth is turning into a bit of a defiant firecracker.  
I'm slowly getting the kids on a schedule and moving up their bedtime.  tonight I got everyone in bed by 7:45 and lights out for everyone by 8.  Brady and Elizabeth were out by 8:15 and Abigail closer to 8:30 or 8:45.  progress.  

as I said... no one else would really consider this anything to juggle but for me, it's felt busy and chaotic.  I'm hoping as we stick to the schedule I've made and I power through things, it will become more mainstream and automatic for me.  one thing that has really really helped is that I quit Facebook two weeks ago.  I did this a year and a half ago (I think maybe February of 2016) and didn't get on Facebook until October when I became pregnant and was in bed 24/7.  this time, like the last, wasn't planned.  it was just one day that I decided I would skip Facebook and then it felt good so I kept doing it.  two weeks ago, my neighbor Stephanie that just moved posted on Facebook a picture illustration of the varieties of spiders and posted about how she'd just killed four spiders already that morning in her apartment.  I commented about how she better not ever post pictures like that again and then realized that that was a big mistake.  because then my notifications were filled with that photo every time someone commented, liked, replied to, etc. that photo post.  I know you can unfollow the post... which I tried to do without looking at my phone (because spider picture)... but almost reported Stephanie to Facebook by accident.  whoops.  gave up on that and decided I would just take a few days off Facebook and wait till it blew over.  but then I just decided maybe I should go on a Facebook fast for a bit.  I'd love to quit Facebook for this whole school year but I'm not committed to it because the second I tell myself I can't have something then I want it fifty times more.  right now, I'm just actively remembering and choosing to abstain from Facebook because it makes me happier.  I truly need to quit it forever, I'm just not there yet.  who wants to change my password for. me?

and now I'm off to clean my kitchen.  or go to sleep.  or maybe just eat a cookie (thanks mother! the gift that keeps on giving!!!).  it's just glorious that I've already enjoyed over an hour of silence and it's only 10pm.  woohoo!

but first... just wanted to say how grateful I am to have ambitions again.  my mentality about life right now is a complete 180 from what it was earlier this year.  reading parenting books, deciding to homeschool (and preschool) my child, spending time outdoors with my kids, choosing to join the gym... when six months ago I struggled to get out of bed, feed my children, and get myself dressed.  just thinking about any one of those things would send me into a fit of depression and overwhelm.  now, I'm back to waking up excited and just feeling frustrated that there's not enough time in the day to do everything I wish I could do.  not the opposite of wishing that I didn't have to live my day and that it could just be night time again so I could fall back asleep into unconsciousness.  it's so crazy to try to wrap my mind around the change.  someone point me to this post next time I'm pregnant, please.  ugh, I'm so not looking forward to going back to that again.  in the mean time, I'll just enjoy this ambitiousness and hope that I feel.

Saturday, March 14, 2015

back in the game

holy cow!  i can't believe we've already been back for an entire week!  that's so crazy how fast it has blown by!  we got back sunday evening and i feel like i've just been trying to catch up since then.  no playdates or hours at the library this week, but hopefully we can do it all next week!

monday- we stayed home while i did a million loads of laundry.  normally this wouldn't be an all day event but for some reason i woke up at 7:30 super energized, and was dead to the world just two hours later.  soooo tired all day long and i was 100% dragging.  but, eventually laundry got done and put away so we'll call it a success anyway.  the initial plan was to go grocery shopping as well, but that definitely didn't happen.  not a huge deal though because i'd left two unopen gallons of milk in our fridge (that i'd gotten just a few days before we left town) and had at least a dozen eggs as well as bread, cheese, etc. so even though we didn't really have any fresh produce, we were fine not to immediately rush to the store.  and that was really really really nice to have that option.  my biggest win of the day though was that brady slept til noon and i didn't get him out of his crib til 12:20!  can i just say that we put the kids to bed at 7 the night before so that kid must have been exhausted?!  17 hours of sleep!

tuesday- abigail had preschool so i dropped her off and made a quick stop by the library to return a book and pick up a book i had waiting for me on hold.  then we made our way to walmart and shopped there til it was time to get abigail again.  the rest of the day was pretty standard with naptime/quiet time and then honey came home early and we went to texas roadhouse for dinner.

wednesday- i had my 28 week appointment so we went to that (side note... one time we got chick fil a chicken biscuits and ate them as a little picnic on the hill outside of our doctor's office.  when we walked past that hill on the way to our car i thought to myself "mmmm chick fil a" at the exact time that abigail said "mom, maybe we should go to chick fil a for lunch."  ha.  but also, after our previous appointment, we'd met honey for lunch at costa vida, so when i got to the car i kept thinking "mmm, should i call honey and see if he wants to meet up at costa vida?"  happily for my waistline, i did neither.) and then stopped by our neighborhood playground on the way home and played there for a long time while i talked on the phone with grandmother and then with mom.  it was such gorgeous t shirt weather... probably sunny and 55.  brady went down the big green slide by himself a bunch of times.  and then went down on his belly and busted his lip.  poor guy.  ; )  we had lunch and nap time and then at the end of quiet time, abigail and i went outside to play on the driveway for the rest of quiet time.  so i brought my book and she played.  lucy and presley came out and decided to come over and join us.  so i pulled up a camp chair for stephanie and we had a blast talking about the joys of parenthood while all our kids played and covered themselves in their homemade paint (when you combine sidewalk chalk with fistfulls of snow melted and rubbed on top) and it was just perfect.

thursday- abigail had school again so we dropped her off and brady and i headed to costco.  we ran into kylee in the parking lot so that was fun.  and even though there were no samples at first (and only a few later), we had a pretty good time.  brady spent the first while whining about what i thought was a basketball? which confused me because we hadn't seen one but he kept pointing back where we'd been.  eventually, i stopped and focused on what he was saying, realizing it wasn't working to just brush him off and he wasn't going to let it go, and found out he wanted a hot dog like he'd seen on the big menu at the front of the store.  so once we decided to share a hot dog at the end of our shopping trip, we were golden.  $300 and a hot dog later (but i need to write down for my memory that brady kept calling me "mommy mommy" any time he wanted another sip of lemonade "i need more juice please, mommy mommy mommy."  why he always did two or three mommys... who knows... but it was making me laugh out loud), we were off to pick up abigail from preschool.  the biggest plus to running errands, but only making one stop, during preschool is that we're always ten minutes early to pick abigail up.  the rest of the day was kind of down hill since abigail lied about going potty and then wet her pants during story time.  but honey came home early because he was in the area for a meeting that got cancelled, so he picked up abigail and took her with him to walmart to fix his broken glasses and to hobby lobby to frame a painting we got in brazil.  meanwhile, i talked on the phone with emmy and she gave me parenting advice from a book she's been reading.  brady woke up and i sent him outside with honey and abigail.  we survived the rest of the night just fine but it wasn't the best.  why have i been getting soooo tired lately?!

friday- the house was in major need of some love so we stayed home.  the kids got up late i think... maybe close to ten?  i got them up and we read books in abigail's room for a while (apparently we were having a princess party and she had decorated so we just needed to read books???) and then headed downstairs for breakfast.  but it was so late already and one of the kids asked for cereal so i decided we could all enjoy a bowl of cereal.  and then we all thought it would be a great idea to turn on a dora show while i did laundry and cleaned the kitchen.  lucy came over around 12:30 and presley came by not too much later.  so that wasn't really going well for brady's nap, but the kids were all having a great time playing together.  eventually, sometime after two, the girls all decided to go to lucy's house and even though brady got his shoes and tried to put them on by the door where the other girls were getting their shoes on, he had to stay behind and nap.  so brady and i enjoyed some bagels and cream cheese... in the great room at the end table since i'd just swept the kitchen and had taken the chairs all out in preparation for mopping... and then i put him down for nap.  i did laundry and put all the sheets and blankets back on our bed and gave the kitchen a thorough mopping on the counter tops and cabinets and floors and got brady up at 5.  and then honey came home and i picked abigail up from lucy's and we all went to texas roadhouse.  i ordered my steak medium rare (as i've been doing for a few months), but this time it was a super thick steak and it was more rare than it's ever been.  it tasted great, but honey kept making faces at me because he either thought it was gross or was worried our baby would die from rare, diseased meat or something.  came home and put the kids to bed and we were out.

saturday- honey went skiing.  the kids and i went to the library and treated it like a normal weekday.  we had eggs and cutie for lunch and then naptime and quiet time.  i struggled to stay awake.  honey got home sometime after 3.  quiet time finished around 4, and right on cue, lucy, presley and kalia came over to play.  brady semi played with them too.  he wants to be involved but a lot of times just isn't interested enough if they're playing something complex with a lot of pretending.  we hung out, played outside a bit, ate paninis for dinner (with costco rotisserie chicken and provolone on french bread) and both kids downed theirs... and the remainder of mine, as well as too much avocado.  man, those kids know how to eat!  and then we went to bed.  so so tired.

Thursday, January 22, 2015

november pictures

from november 9th to the 25th...

pregnancy woke me up before the sunrise for quite a while.  plus side? you get to see the sunrise!

oatmeal with milk and berries... mmmm

brady's selfies at church.

coming home from church and trying to figure out how convincing i was trying to not look pregnant.

when i was 10.5 weeks pregnant.  the waist on the skirt actually worked really well as a corset for me.

it normally fits a little looser.

but the wiggle room is long gone.

while i was bedridden with morning sickness... abigail managed to find her fair share of mischief every morning after she woke up.  i'm really not sure what happened here other than a good amount of bubblegum princess toothpaste.

also, brady went through a phase of taking off his pj's.  i didn't fight it.

in november... it snowed.

honey and the kids watched some hockey.

except that brady can't be contained for long.

i still blame pregnancy, but abigail spent a lot of time doing puzzles.

and while i was at ward choir, she singlehandedly opened this brand new puzzle and did it 100% by herself.  all 50 pieces.

liza announced her pregnancy with her littlest wearing a big brothers rock t shirt.  we scribbled on a paper and texted this back.  yeay for homestar runner brady!

my friend kerra and i carpool to choir.  she made these cookies for the choir treat and i ate at least three because they were so delicious.  she texted me the recipe.  i've been thinking about them ever since but still need to actually make them!

11.17.14 at 11.5 weeks pregnant.  my belly popped at 8 weeks and i spent the next month marveling at how fast it grew!

there's little baby hillier!  due date is actually june 4th, not the second like the picture says.

morning sickness left me incapacitated and abigail and brady got to be 100% solid on getting set up at the table.  brady climbed in his chair and then held still while abigail buttoned his bib and snapped his tray and pushed his chair to the table.

then she would sit herself in her own seat so all i had to do was set some cereal on the table and crawl back in bed.  for the record, she was also really good at undoing his bib and helping him out of his chair after his food was all gone so i didn't have to get out of bed for that part.  

occasionally though i ventured out of my bed and into abigail's bed!  morning sickness is a beast.  also, kids are totally worth it.

abigail made a pilgrim hat at preschool.  she actually made several and i think i ate most of them.

in november... snow melted.

i normally like blackberries, but this pregnancy i've been liking them even more.  here are some drizzled with sweetened condensed milk.  you should try it.

on our girls night temple trip, i was loving my life because it's always wonderful.  i was still loving my life when i came home because of this.  honey cleaned the entire [filthy] kitchen and all the dirty dishes.

i shopped for clothes for liza for her christmas present.  convenient that we're the same size and the same amount pregnant (she's due just a few days after i am) so that was amazing.

so sleepy.  we went to a friend's house for dinner and at the end, abigail begged us to go home so she could go to sleep.

she passed out the second we were in the car.

i love these two.  they're a winning combo for sure.

we're like a magnet for free stuff.  my neighbor cleaned out her daughter's closet and said we should have all of these basically brand new bags.  abigail was thrilled.  ; )
so that was the odds and ends of november.

Wednesday, July 30, 2014

the past week and a half

oh my goodness... where to even begin!  i can't even remember what i have and haven't blogged about.  sometimes i feel like i take a picture and then think of a caption or how i would write it for a blog post and then i never actually post anything but it feels like i have.  i swear i'm losing my mind.

anyways, short story... we came back from atlanta on friday the 18th.  the kids did great on the flight and all went really well.  they were even precious in the airport waiting for our bags and everything.  it was a good day but a very very long day and we were exhausted.  the kids' big suitcase actually got carried in our door and was dropped on the floor right in the middle of the back door, the laundry room door, and the door to the bathroom.  and then it stayed there for i don't even know how many days.

saturday morning i can't remember really what happened... probably we all just tried to hang out and get unpacked.  at noon, i went to lunch with our camp cook committee at a little thai place in the downtown historic district on mainstreet parker.  it was really good.  we just talked about how things went at camp and what to do for next year.  then i went to the grocery store to pick up milk and food.  after i got home, we got the kids ready and elle came over.  we all went to lollipop park which is a fun little indoor amusement park.  every year i think about having a birthday party for abigail but talk myself out of it because that's totally not my thing.  but we took abigail and elle together as a little birthday celebration and it was a lot of fun.  we bought a wristband for brady too and he went on basically everything the girls did.  so much fun.  we got back by 8 but were all so exhausted.  elle went home and i got the kids to bed while christopher started writing my talk for church (don't judge... i had a lot going on and cripple foot husband that couldn't do a whole lot).  i'd been excited to get home so brady could go back to sleeping like his ususal and not be so clingy to me.  well... wasn't happening.  he took forever to go to bed.  it was midnight when i finished praying and i'd already set my alarm to wake up early and finish writing my talk and practice it.  but as soon as i finished praying, i just felt like i should do it right then.  i spent over three hours finishing my talk.  i added personal experiences and what christopher had written (mostly the quotes and doctrinal stuff), i made my own.  and then i practiced it and timed it.  i didn't get to bed til close to four i think.  and i still woke up at 6:30 so i would have enough time in the morning to do everything i needed to.

sunday went well.  somehow my morning got filled with other things and i didn't actually look at or practice my talk at all.  christopher read over it for me though and said it was excellent, which was the highlight of my day because he doesn't give compliments unless he means them, and typically his compliments don't include the words "excellent" and "perfect" and "i wouldn't change a single thing."  his only advice was that i make sure not to talk to softly... and i'm happy to report that i did just great on that front.  also, i loved hearing compliments from people afterwords... just people telling me that it was just what they needed to hear.  i know how much i benefit from other peoples' talks so it made me feel good to be able to be on the other end of that for once.  i spent the second two hours of church in nursery with brady.  it was pretty uneventful except that brady was terrified of this little [big] girl in there who literally just turned 18 months.  the girl reminds me of paisley nef.  anyways... brady was terrified.  after church we all napped and then nothing else really happened i don't think.

monday through friday was pretty much just all sorts of bad, bad, bad.  y'know those days where everything is going wrong and everything is getting on your nerves and just nothing is right at all?  that was happening to me all day... day after day after day.  except tuesday... tuesday was actually pretty good.  brady was being so crazy clingy and crying and screaming if i wasn't holding him... he wasn't taking a nap unless i was napping with him... or if i spent an hour getting him to nap in his crib, he would wake up crying anywhere from 10-40 minutes later.  at night it would take up to an hour and a half to get him to bed.  and then he would wake up during the night too.  one evening i was soooo exhausted, i told christopher i wanted both kids in bed by 8... which we actually managed to do since we started the bedtime routine at like 6:30 or something.  after the kids went to bed, i was doing cleaning and laundry and then went to bed... and not long after i'd fallen asleep, maybe 11:45? ... abigail woke up crying and wanted me to lay with her.  which i did... half sleeping... for about an hour.  and as i was about to fall asleep in my own bed... brady started crying.  and for the next three hours, i tried to get that kid to sleep.  well, i could get him to sleep just fine... but then escaping his bedroom was something i could never manage successfully.  i rocked him in his rocking chair, i pretended to lay in his crib with him, i laid on the rails of his crib with my hand on his back, i laid on the floor by his crib and put my hand through the crib slats, i laid in his toddler bed with him while he continually stood up, fell on my face, and tried to get comfortable... and then i finally moved his toddler bed mattress to the floor by his crib so i had a more comfortable place to lay while i stuck my hand through the rails.  it would take at least 30 minutes for him to fall asleep, only to have him wake up crying within seconds of me leaving his bedroom.  i even tried letting him cry it out for a while.  no go.  anyways, by 4am, i was asleep in my bed.  and awake less than three hours later to start my day.  i know now that brady's trouble sleeping on our trip wasn't so much travel related (duh, i should have known this since he did great at the ranch/cabin/snowbird on our utah trip just a few weeks prior) as it is teething... which is a long and bumpy road for brady.  like 4-6 weeks.  anyways, naps have been short, night time sleep interrupted, mornings coming far earlier than usual.... it's been a blast.  especially since brady only wants me... 24/7 and needs to be held and comforted all day long.  so... it was a bad week.  not just because of the kids though... it was everything.  i even had two bad experiences at walmart in the same day and i NEVER have bad experiences at walmart.  and [maybe for the first time ever] one night, i was up past midnight (because that was my only chance to get anything done) hot gluing toys back together when the dryer finished the load of laundry.  i decided to fold it and put it away right then so it wouldn't wrinkle and so i wouldn't have to worry about it the next day.  sweeeeet... for the first time since being home, i'll have every single bit of laundry completely done... even sheets and towels and kitchen rags and everything.  so i'm putting abigails clothes in her drawers when i notice a smell and go to check on her in bed.  yup, no diaper on that kid and she and the bed are drenched.  awesome, let's strip the girl and the bed and start a new load of laundry at 12:30 in the morning.  i wasn't thrilled about life at that point in time.  so yeah, the whole week was like that.  minus tuesday.  tuesday we went to the pool with shaylee and jodi and their girls and brady was actually enjoying the water.  and then i think abigail played with the neighbor girls or something?  i can't remember but i do know it was a good day.  the following day though was back to rough and by the late afternoon i just was standing in our greatroom with a fussy brady on my hip while i lamented to abigail that sometimes i just don't know what to do!  so we literally just walked straight out the door and started driving.  we got gas in the car and then went to the library.  i didn't even care that brady had no shoes and abigail was wearing mismatched pj's and that we were there just 24 hours before.  i know all the librarians know us and recognize us and were probably fully aware that we were there two nights in a row and this time looking even more haggard than the last but that's okay.  it saved us.  the library is our happy place.  the week was just really really really rough.






and friday night was dinner and july birthday celebrations (abigail, brian, and hallie) with the hilliers.  that part was fun.










 

saturday we did a whole lot of nothing and then ran errands as a family.  abigail and i ran in walmart while christopher stayed in the car with a passed out brady.  we fed the missionaries and they were super nice and non-awkward.  at the end, one asked if he could do my dishes for me.  i literally laughed out loud in his face and gave him a solid NO.  which took him off guard and made him start laughing too.  for some reason it was all hilarious to me.  christopher did the dishes instead.  i love having him do the dishes anyways, but especially since he's had his hurt ankle (he injured it pretty bad playing basketball while i was at my grandparents' house and has been hobbling around since) because he can't get around well and or do a whole lot.  but dishes... he can definitely still do those.

sunday i slept in and didn't wake up til 45 minutes after my alarm.  christopher was at ward council so really it's just amazing that i didn't end up sleeping even later.  anyways, none of us really had breakfast and we were probably ten minutes late to church but it was all fine in the end.  i subbed in nursery.  they asked for volunteers during the week and i figured i was going to be there both hours with brady anyways.  so it was good to be in there but brady still clung to me although he was not as afraid of the chubby girl as before.  i'm subbing again next week too... brady shows no signs of adjusting better but i am seriously dying with all the relief society [and sunday school] lessons i'm missing out on.  it's killing me.

monday, brady decided to wake up at 6:45 so he took at early (and short) nap and then we went to jodi's for her to fix my mullet.  emmy and i had a little too much craziness cutting my hair that last night at the beach that i somehow ended up with a mullet.  i lived with the mullet for over two weeks to see if it blended with time... it didn't.  i got compliments on my haircut, but i felt like i was always having to be careful with the way my hair was sitting on my shoulders etc so the mullet wouldn't be so visible.  anyways, jodi cut off even more of my hair and now i don't have a mullet anymore but i think i'm officially in the "she's got short, shoulder length hair" description if i ever go missing.  christopher says he likes it but wouldn't go shorter.  i'm grateful for this experience because now i for sure know that i prefer longer hair.  and jodi cut brady's hair too.  i somewhat cut his hair in the bath tub but he lost patience with me and by the end, he was running around the bathtub while i chased him with sharp scissors pointed at his head.  so i had to stop and he had his own weird haircut for a few days.  ; )  we're a little lax on our appearances, can you tell?

tuesday, abigail and lucy played together all day, back and forth from house to house.  i used to worry because it seemed like abigail loooooved playing with lucy but that lucy didn't really care for abigail.  well, that's long gone now because it's clear that both girls are obsessed with one another.  abigail is always talking about going to lucy's house and lucy's mom has confirmed with me that lucy asks to play with abigail within five seconds of waking up.

and today is wednesday the 30th.  all day was rainy and cold.  my new visiting teacher came over.  i love her and had fun hanging out with her for a bit.  i love too that abigail and brady and i were all still in pj's when she came and my house wasn't clean (last minute, she asked if she could come 30 minutes earlier than we'd scheduled) and it was just fine.  abigail informed her of our pj party (she's been really into those lately although we're having trouble deciding what happens besides just wearing pjs)... we'd been reading books and just hadn't gotten around to starting our day yet.  after visiting teaching, i put brady down for a nap (hallelujah that he's been falling asleep in less than ten minutes and all i have to do is lay on the floor by his crib and hold his hand through the crib slats) and showered and got ready.  brady woke up and cried and clung and fussed and then lucy came over.  we left by 2 to meet honey at the office and then from there, went to the aquarium.  they were supposed to have a summer company party this afternoon at a park.  playing games and hanging out and eating food.  but this is the coldest weather week i possibly ever recall experiencing and today, it was low 60's and raining all day long.  so, plan b was the aquarium and a mexican restaurant and it all turned out just great.  we all got home super exhausted and craving our warm beds.  brady once again fell asleep in less than ten minutes and honey and i watched two episodes of impractical jokers before bed.  i have a short attention span with tv but not with this show.  every episode has me crying from laughing out loud so hard.  guilty pleasure.

so anyways, the days are getting better and hopefully in a few weeks when brady's teeth are all in, life will feel like normal again!  although maybe not because summer is almost over (it's been so cool though, i feel like i'm still waiting for it to arrive!) and abigail will be starting preschool.  hold my hand and coach me through this.  i'm not ready.  i don't want my kids to go to school.  k... not thinking about it right now.  we're just enjoying some fun rainy weather this week and we'll wait to go to the pool next week.  it's great.

other notables:
since it was cold, abigail went swimming in our master bathtub... with her dive rings and goggles.  she was thiiiiis close to putting her face under water but kept chickening out and no amount of bribing would change her mind.  she's now informed me that she'll put her face under the water and take swimming lessons when she's five.  anyone have any great ideas?
i crossed something huge off of my bucket list.... yesterday was a beautiful and chilly overcast day and I MADE BREAD.  my first time ever making anything requiring yeast.  it was so simple and even though it didn't rise as much as it should (i've been thinking it over and i think part of the problem was during the first rising when i left it uncovered and let the heat escape) and wasn't super pretty... but it was delicious and HOLY COW I ACTUALLY MADE BREAD!  it was the honey wheat bread from the blendtec cookbook.  it called for only simple ingredients (yeast was the craziest thing on the list) and the instructions were so easy to follow.  the only downside was that i ate at least half a loaf in the first two hours after it came out of the oven.  whoops.
i know i already mentioned it but brady holds my hand at night while he falls asleep.  he can roll around and get comfortable but instantly grabs my hand again to hold.  tonight he switched from his back to his belly and for a second was holding my hand with both of his... heaven forbid should he let go of my hand so he doubled up while he made the switch.  he's grown up so much in the past week.  he climbs up and down from his highchair all the time when he wants a snack.  he feeds himself really well with a fork/spoon.  he cleans up toys and spills more.  his speech is clearer and his vocabulary is growing rapidly.  his physical coordination is improving by leaps and bounds.  he's into doing grown up and big kid things and is more and more copying the things he sees others do.  he has an interest in tv and will sit with abigail to watch.  he's started pointing to his diaper and signaling to me when he's about to poop.  he rubs the soap by himself when he gets his hands washed.  but don't worry... he still laughs his "huh" to signify "yes."  i'm going to be super super sad when he actually starts saying "yes" and "no"... then he will have really grown up.